Developing Compassionate Clarity
A sense of relief comes when we enter this work and learn to welcome and be with all aspects of our human experience. We start to relax because we stop […]
Divine Mutuality
The realization of our paradoxical human/ divine existence, which in Trillium we call “second birth”, is just the beginning of our spiritual exploration–a foundation upon which to really explore our […]
Mini-Autobiography ~ May 2015
Van Nguyen was the most senior (chronologically) Senior Teacher of the Waking Down process, and is now the most senior Trillium Awakening Senior Teacher. He was born in San Francisco […]
Van’s Awakening Poem
December 31, 2000 Great grace has graced my life. I had believed that it couldn’t happen to me, and then it did… I have been reluctant to place this free-verse […]
The Paradox of the Conscious Body
A note from the author: I composed this piece late one night after a sitting I did at my friend Jen’s home. Jen had asked about the consciousness aspect of […]
Matter Is-ness
You are the living paradox of Primal Feeling Is-ness in physical embodiment. You are a dynamic process as the Consciously Feeling or Feelingly Conscious body-mind (or body-mind-soul complex, to speak […]
My Story
I am an American born, 46 year-old wholistic dentist of Vietnamese-Chinese ancestry. I survived a traumatic childhood with deep emotional wounds and psychological complexes. Starting in my late teens, I […]
Love, Awakening, and Intimate Relationship
“Intimate relationship challenges you to the core; that’s why it is one of the most powerful paths to awakening, integration, love, and freedom.” – Hillary and Ted Below is an […]
Hillary on The Rot
An interview by Ted for Issue #3 of Mutuality Matters. What’s the Rot about from your perspective? The willingness to start to face into what you’ve been running from your […]
What is the Embodiment in Trillium Awakening?
Note: this essay was written when Trillium Awakening was still Waking Down in Mutuality. For more info on our history go to: https://dev.gabrielmafra.com/history/ In this essay “Down” = “Embodiment” To me, […]
Testimonials
I feel so VERY SAFE with you, like I am securely held, safely, with love and nurturing, in a large hammock and I can’t fall out. 🙂 –W. Someone like […]
Beloved Quotes
Let my joyfully streaming face make me more radiant; let my hidden weeping arise and blossom. How dear you will be to me then, you nights of anguish. Why didn’t […]
Quiet Friend
Quiet friend who has come so far, Feel how your breathing makes more space around you. Let your darkness be a bell tower And you the bell. As you ring, […]
Mythical Kings and Iguanas
–by Dory Previn, On My Way to Where i have flown to star-stained heights on bent and battered wings in search of mythical kings mythical kings sure that everything of […]
Translating Spirituality for Traumatized People
I often feel the need to “translate” spiritual teachings so that they will be understood by people who have suffered trauma: “When we rest in the unconditioned mind, we are […]
Spirituality and Trauma
Our Divinely Human Animal Nature: Healing Trauma through Embodied Awakening and Somatic Experiencing In recent years, it has become increasingly clear that trauma resolution must include the body as an […]
The Rot
The Rot is a core evolutionary process of the cocooning chrysalis. It is a composting of withered fruits. It is the foundation for the integration of the whole person with […]
The Heart of Our Process
I am drawn to the rich simultaneity of personal growth and satisfying service to humanity that involvement in Awakened Mutuality confers. It’s not something I choose; rather, it is the […]
The Nature of my Work
TO BE MET RATHER THAN FIXED By deeply welcoming, meeting, and empowering your whole being, I hope to help catalyze your direct, embodied awakening, and bring healing to your heart. […]
Saniel’s Introduction to Deborah
“Deborah Boyar has become one of the Great Mothers of the Waking Down in Mutuality work and community. Her very presence nurtures, holds, and accepts people wherever they are. When […]