Conscious Growth in a World of Limits
One of the insights I have found to be most valuable within the Trillium Awakening (TA) dharma is that we are simultaneously both without limits and highly limited. Since this […]
Poem: Icarus Reimagined
What if Icarus returned with the Sun? What if her wings carried her all the way there, beyond her imagination, and back? What if her heart could actually bear […]
Poem: Matter
Linger here. This body with its sagging skin and thinning hair. Milk it. Milk every precious moment of matter-ing. Let life matter. Matter yourself into this moment. Matter yourself […]
Skinny Poem: Here
The window is dirty, still. Its busted blinds held in place by string wound around a nail. A more perfect future beckons with “Some day…” but Here is all […]
Skinny Poem: At Home, At Last
My cells shimmer in delicious stillness, the inaudible hum of the universe courses through my tides, through this nylon folding chair, through the 80-year-old cedar in my yard. Skinless, I […]
Invitation
When you are ready, come. I will be waiting by the river’s purling hurry, slim or sleek with spring. We will walk there and your story– river in ice, river […]
The Privilege to Rest in Being
It’s such a blessing to have a free day, a day in which the movement of Being is unfettered and flowing. Today has been just such a day, off from […]
Tired of the Hamster Wheel
September 2, 2020 So much of our lives are spent trying to perfect ourselves, trying to prove to others – our parents, teachers, peers, bosses, spouses, tribe – that we […]
Interview with Fax for Trillium Awakening Newsletter
Elijah Petersen is currently the youngest Trillium Awakening teacher. He works as a PhD level environmental scientist in the Washington D.C. area where he lives with his wife. After exploring a […]
My Story
Against a bland and uninspiring middle class background, with its unremarkable pleasures, pains, and suppressed emotions, I held a romantic ideal of the perfect love relationship which would lift me […]
The Role of Trust in My Awakening Process
The Role of Trust in My Awakening Process “Why didn’t you just go ahead and bust the guy?” asked my trusted friend Junelle. We were all sitting at a birthday […]
I am also you
from: Dancing in the Fire: Stories of Awakening within the Heart of Community, edited by Bob Valine I thought for a moment in silence. “I am dual, both limitless and […]
Engage!
Engage! — a spoken presentation for the Feast of Sittings, Fairfield, May 30, 2016 Imagine this talk as the culmination of a wonderful Spring event, a living room full of […]
The Eggshell Waltz
Words fail me…..when I feel like this, fallen with such intensity…. into I know not what. Pressed full-force, from the inside out, to meet the one you are. The I […]
Getting What You Need
This is a mystery that has recently been revealed to me. It’s the tail of life’s comet full of “unexpected” events, and a way to fall more deeply into love […]
Leaning into the Small, Still Place
My recent transition from a Trillium Awakening Mentor to an Interning Teacher has represented a sort of spiritual blossoming for me, a coming to fruition of years of seeking and […]
Exit 0: Coming to the End of Suffering
New Jersey, where I grew up, is bisected north to south by two major highways, the Garden State Parkway and the Turnpike. If you’re a South Jersey Girl, like me, […]
Social Dimensions of Awakening
Embodied awakening is a deeply incarnated and humanizing process that simultaneously anchors our identity in our unbounded nature. As unconscious material arises for integration and healing our awakening deepens, and […]
Poem: The Lover
By Margit Bantowsky Tear down this house! Run naked toward the Moon and tumble down the mountainside in her arms. Throw away all your straight-jacket dreams of safe worlds and metered […]
Awakening is Mind Blowing
If you’ve been a seeker for a while, then you are probably aware, at least conceptually, of some of the paradoxes of Being. I sometimes like to imagine two of […]